I day dream a lot and think about whole lot of things. I see that I am interested in so many things in life but still find myself short of time and energy to pursue those things...for eg.....I have this desire to learn guitar but till date I couldnot go ahead with that desire..all I do is just think of it when I see people playing guitar and hope that I shud also learn it and sometimes kind of resolutely decide on it also. But the moment I get back to the routines of daily life, that desire, that secret wish gets lost somewhere inside me. And though it resurfaces occasionally but the voice is subdued by other more nearby and imminent chores of life.
Sometimes I think life is unfair and the dialogue from the movie"pursuits of happyness" seems most apt here i.e. man doesnt have the right to be happy, only the right to pursue it. When we have one thing in life we are not living it, rather craving for something else.....always and I am no different to that behaviour. When I have a job, I shud look around to fulfill things which my heart really longs for, but all I do is looking out for more money. And I guess this craving for money will never die. We are in one way cursed by being given this desire to horde money, because at the end of the day there is nothing worse than having all the wealth in this world and still dont have anyone to share it with. Someday we will be a millionaire or a billionaire and breathing our last. There was this message which says "the paradox of life is that just when your salary reaches to a point where the food prices dont matter anymore, the calories start to matter". Even though I say all this I am still not gutsy enuf to go for what I truly wish for.
I just keep flowing with the wind and still dream about reaching the stars. I dont know why ......I just dont know. Why is that god spares nobody and has given everybody something to be tensed about, something to worry about. Or is it like this...may be its all within oneself. One can choose to be happy irrespective of the conditions prevailing around. One can choose to be happy no matter what. I try to follow this principle in life but just when I am happy with my life, the whole world comes down on my head and starts telling me to be serious, think of future and do something, prepare, work hard and make money.
Not that I am against making money, but just that there should be a point at which we should turn back. We should look into what governs our attitude towards money-making i.e whether its greed or some other worthy purpose. Well all said and done, finally, I believe, we shud all strive to contain ur worldly desires and indulge in more worthy pursuits. Do what your heart says and not what the world tells you to do. Please stop this mad rat race because like they say even if you win this race..you still remain a rat.
